26.

Apparently I'm not allowed to study on my birthday, so I'm going to take the time and write a blog.  I'm really conflicted about 26.  I'm excited to start a new year of my life, 25 was alright but it really could have been better.  I like to think of birthdays as the real "new year."  And this year I want to go into it with nothing but positive thoughts about what will come.  So, that is good about my birthday.  But...I guess I never really thought about how 26 really means that my 20s are winding down.  Am I where I wanted to be at this time?  I'm happy with where I am, I'm glad I'm heading down a good career path, even if it took me a bit to decide to do it.  At least I had a quarter-life crisis at 23 and realized I did NOT want to spend my life working at a collection agency, so I took the initiative and decided to go to law school.  And I'll be in my career by the time I'm 30, which is where I would want to be by that time, so career-wise, I'm happy.

As for other life...stuff...well, I've been very undecided about children for a long time so I really didn't think I'd have any by now.  Romantically...I don't know.  There was a time in my life I thought I'd be married or at least on my way by now.  But, I've realized I'm really picky.  I was almost engaged twice, and I was the one who ended both relationships.  (Yes, I know for a fact that both of them were going to propose.  I had a promise ring from one, and the other later informed me that he'd bought a ring.)  Actually, I've ended most of my romantic encounters, from friends with benefits to "dating" to actual relationships.  Generally a pretty definitive "end," even in the friends with benefits category.  So, maybe I thought I'd be married by 26.  But maybe it's good that I'm not.  Maybe it's better that I'm picky about who I date.  Maybe I'm just waiting for it to be right.

On that subject, I am sort of seeing someone right now.  I say "sort of" because we're both really busy so it's been difficult to coordinate.  He's coming to the birthday festivities tonight though, so that's nice.  I do like him.  But it's very new, so I don't have a lot to say about it yet.  Oh, his name is Matt, which Jenn and I have found very funny.

Anyway.  Enough of wondering if I'm where I wanted to be at 26.  26 is here, whether I like it or not.  And I think what I want most out of this year is to just have it be good.  I want to do well in my remaining classes, have good experiences at my last two internships, enjoy the year, and live it up!  And I'm going to start living it up by having a great time at fondue tonight!  =)

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